We all look for change in our lives. There are times when we say to our selves," i badly need a change right now". Infact instead of working out on what is bothering us, we actually work on changing things for us.
And then there are times when we even stoop down to changing ourselves. We change the way we look, the way we behave, the way we do things....we change so much that we turn out to be completely different persons.
As much as we want change, there are also times when we really hope things would be the same or get back to being how they were. Like on your first day of college and your all alone, you really hope you were back in school with all your friends. Or after a break up with your love, you really hope you would just have been friends. when you've done a terrible mistake and you know, you wish you could go back in time.
But lets face it, its only when we want or imagine things should be and they are not that we expect some change. but whether we want it or not, nothing in life is permanent. you might have had the best of friends in school, and thought you'd be just like that forever. but eventually you have to find your own ways. the way you would have felt when you were told how beautiful you look, must have made you feel that you were made for each other.But everybody's priorities change one day. You made a mistake and thought your parents would never forgive you. they are your parents, they have to forgive you, its their job. hehe!
Sooner or later we have to accept these facts of life. We cannot change things when we want, they change only when its the right time to change or when we are ready. at the same time, things are not permanent either, they WILL change. we just need to live our lives, as it is layed in front of us. I guess accepting this will help us be a lot happier.
Monday, August 30, 2010
Friday, August 27, 2010
Just for the fun of it!
I always confront people who are so indulged into things so technically, that they seem to miss out on the fun that is underlying. they are just so curious about why and how exactly things happen, and completely forget to feel what they are going through.
I loooooooove goin on long drives on my bike. i usually do with my friends and we just have a heck of a time. especially when it rains. ofcourse somtimes i just love to take the back seat and njoy the ride. but i also love grabbing the handles and speeding up on the empty roads listening to the wind wistle into my ears. its a wonderful experience.
and at times when theres a slight drizzle and cold breeze flowing slowly, its like heaven.just driveing along the roads, at the speed you are comfortable in and enjoying the wind blow into your hair, and the cold rain drops falling over you, wow!!! thers nothing better than that.
but like i said, there are again some friends who are so cought up into the technicalities that they even try stopping me enjoy, telling me that "at that speed your bike will skid. thats a sure thing", "dont drive too fast while takin turns, you cant handle it".
Id just wish that for once. people would come out of that shell and experience just how wonderful things can be when you feel them. i drive fast, most of my friends tell me im a harsh drive. even my mom. but whenever i drive, itss all my intuition. i am not much into how exactly the bike works. how it reacts for every turn you take or every stop you make.
But i always know when i drive, if im goin at a speed i can handle. i just like to think that, when im driving, i rather trust my intuition and guts, on how well im doing, more than the technicalities of the working of the bike or what anybody else says.
I like to think that, waht we are surrounded by, has got a lot more than what it looks to be. and instead of spending hours together in getting the theoretical details about everything, trying to know and experience things just for the fun of it, can teach you a lifes lesson which can prove to be much more precious than anything you learn everyday.
I loooooooove goin on long drives on my bike. i usually do with my friends and we just have a heck of a time. especially when it rains. ofcourse somtimes i just love to take the back seat and njoy the ride. but i also love grabbing the handles and speeding up on the empty roads listening to the wind wistle into my ears. its a wonderful experience.
and at times when theres a slight drizzle and cold breeze flowing slowly, its like heaven.just driveing along the roads, at the speed you are comfortable in and enjoying the wind blow into your hair, and the cold rain drops falling over you, wow!!! thers nothing better than that.
but like i said, there are again some friends who are so cought up into the technicalities that they even try stopping me enjoy, telling me that "at that speed your bike will skid. thats a sure thing", "dont drive too fast while takin turns, you cant handle it".
Id just wish that for once. people would come out of that shell and experience just how wonderful things can be when you feel them. i drive fast, most of my friends tell me im a harsh drive. even my mom. but whenever i drive, itss all my intuition. i am not much into how exactly the bike works. how it reacts for every turn you take or every stop you make.
But i always know when i drive, if im goin at a speed i can handle. i just like to think that, when im driving, i rather trust my intuition and guts, on how well im doing, more than the technicalities of the working of the bike or what anybody else says.
I like to think that, waht we are surrounded by, has got a lot more than what it looks to be. and instead of spending hours together in getting the theoretical details about everything, trying to know and experience things just for the fun of it, can teach you a lifes lesson which can prove to be much more precious than anything you learn everyday.
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
life has to go on!
I had reached a point in life where i was actually finding reasons to get out o home and start living independently, without having to depend on my mom or dad for every little thing. or rather may be i was finding ways to show my parents that i am really grown up now and i can really take care of myself, because it was exactly the opposite that they thought of me(or thats how i presumed it to be).
And finally came the day when i sure dint have to give them a shock of leaving home at once, but i had enough time to prove to them. i got an opportunity to go to hyderabad to do my internsip in this company for a couple of months.the minute i heard this news i was on cloud nine coz i thot i finally got what i wanted- independence, freedom, and a chance to stay away from home.
i couldnt wait for the day when i had to leave and face life with a completely new perspective.I had my parents coming with me to drop me in hyderabad, in my aunts house, and to drop me in the office on my first day. Well, ill admit it, that dint really seem to me as much a problem because i kind of was nervous and could use their support. infact it felt good. but from the next day it was all me.
I had a lot goin on in my mind about this internship, and my life away from home and how id wanto njoy it. i had planned a lot too. things were goin pretty fine the first week, when i had enough work to do in the office and to work on my report. i was busy. that kept me goin. i was kind of liking what i was doin and how my life was goin on.
but let me tell you, what u always imagine or expect you would get out of your life, is only a rosey picture. nothing actually turns out as beautiful. things have to turn out the way they have to and you have to get used to these surprises that life brings forth. otherwise, trust m, life gets even harder.
what i was expecting out of life and what i planned for dint exactly turn out that way. And frnakly speaking, i freaked out. the people i was living and working with, all drove me crazy. i thought living away from home will give me everything i wanted.i thought living away from home will give me the freedom i always wanted.i wouldnt have to ask dad permission every time i wanted to go out with my friends. i wouldnt have to fight with mom over silly chores that i dint do.
well, its not how it turns out. its lot more complicated. freedom, u need, but with it comes a lot of responsibility, as well as a lonely life, where at times you may find the people you count upon, and at others u dont.
after everything i was goin through, i felt the kind of freedom i have living in my home, i can never get living out of it. and i couldnt wait to finish up with my two months of internship and get back home. i knw everything else would come back too. i know i would have to ask my dad for permission to go out with freinds, but i also know that i never did and never will get a no for an answer. he'll always let me do what i please.
and oh god did i miss doing all those chores. it is always so much fun working with mom. we have had some of the best times together. and i hav noi clue why i ever wanted to give that up.
After all life has to go on, and i will have to live away from my parents at some point of time, but the lesson that i learnt with this little outing is a big one. the reason why your mom or dad stop u from doin things you wanto do is not because they want to stop you from having fun, but its because they want the best for you. they have been through everything i am goin through now, and they r just trying to share their experience with you. and whether you take it or leave it is up to you.
i am glad that this little outing of mine was only for 2 months, because its not an easy world out there and your parents are always there for you to hold on to until your ready to let go. its been a week that im back home and now i dnt even wanna leave it to go to college...hahaha!!! but sure, life has to go on.
And finally came the day when i sure dint have to give them a shock of leaving home at once, but i had enough time to prove to them. i got an opportunity to go to hyderabad to do my internsip in this company for a couple of months.the minute i heard this news i was on cloud nine coz i thot i finally got what i wanted- independence, freedom, and a chance to stay away from home.
i couldnt wait for the day when i had to leave and face life with a completely new perspective.I had my parents coming with me to drop me in hyderabad, in my aunts house, and to drop me in the office on my first day. Well, ill admit it, that dint really seem to me as much a problem because i kind of was nervous and could use their support. infact it felt good. but from the next day it was all me.
I had a lot goin on in my mind about this internship, and my life away from home and how id wanto njoy it. i had planned a lot too. things were goin pretty fine the first week, when i had enough work to do in the office and to work on my report. i was busy. that kept me goin. i was kind of liking what i was doin and how my life was goin on.
but let me tell you, what u always imagine or expect you would get out of your life, is only a rosey picture. nothing actually turns out as beautiful. things have to turn out the way they have to and you have to get used to these surprises that life brings forth. otherwise, trust m, life gets even harder.
what i was expecting out of life and what i planned for dint exactly turn out that way. And frnakly speaking, i freaked out. the people i was living and working with, all drove me crazy. i thought living away from home will give me everything i wanted.i thought living away from home will give me the freedom i always wanted.i wouldnt have to ask dad permission every time i wanted to go out with my friends. i wouldnt have to fight with mom over silly chores that i dint do.
well, its not how it turns out. its lot more complicated. freedom, u need, but with it comes a lot of responsibility, as well as a lonely life, where at times you may find the people you count upon, and at others u dont.
after everything i was goin through, i felt the kind of freedom i have living in my home, i can never get living out of it. and i couldnt wait to finish up with my two months of internship and get back home. i knw everything else would come back too. i know i would have to ask my dad for permission to go out with freinds, but i also know that i never did and never will get a no for an answer. he'll always let me do what i please.
and oh god did i miss doing all those chores. it is always so much fun working with mom. we have had some of the best times together. and i hav noi clue why i ever wanted to give that up.
After all life has to go on, and i will have to live away from my parents at some point of time, but the lesson that i learnt with this little outing is a big one. the reason why your mom or dad stop u from doin things you wanto do is not because they want to stop you from having fun, but its because they want the best for you. they have been through everything i am goin through now, and they r just trying to share their experience with you. and whether you take it or leave it is up to you.
i am glad that this little outing of mine was only for 2 months, because its not an easy world out there and your parents are always there for you to hold on to until your ready to let go. its been a week that im back home and now i dnt even wanna leave it to go to college...hahaha!!! but sure, life has to go on.
Monday, August 23, 2010
my first
well....
i not sure how exactly i have to start blogging, still giving it a try. i have always found interest in writing and i guess blogging can help me improve. i do have a lot of interesting thoughts that i would like to share, and im sure ill need a lot of help. i hope anyone reading this can do something to help me out. im not even sure if what im writing can be posted as a blog...but hey....im not giving up.
anyways..ill just end with this for now and see if i get any replies on this. and i also have a lot of doubts so...HELP!! :P
i not sure how exactly i have to start blogging, still giving it a try. i have always found interest in writing and i guess blogging can help me improve. i do have a lot of interesting thoughts that i would like to share, and im sure ill need a lot of help. i hope anyone reading this can do something to help me out. im not even sure if what im writing can be posted as a blog...but hey....im not giving up.
anyways..ill just end with this for now and see if i get any replies on this. and i also have a lot of doubts so...HELP!! :P
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