I had reached a point in life where i was actually finding reasons to get out o home and start living independently, without having to depend on my mom or dad for every little thing. or rather may be i was finding ways to show my parents that i am really grown up now and i can really take care of myself, because it was exactly the opposite that they thought of me(or thats how i presumed it to be).
And finally came the day when i sure dint have to give them a shock of leaving home at once, but i had enough time to prove to them. i got an opportunity to go to hyderabad to do my internsip in this company for a couple of months.the minute i heard this news i was on cloud nine coz i thot i finally got what i wanted- independence, freedom, and a chance to stay away from home.
i couldnt wait for the day when i had to leave and face life with a completely new perspective.I had my parents coming with me to drop me in hyderabad, in my aunts house, and to drop me in the office on my first day. Well, ill admit it, that dint really seem to me as much a problem because i kind of was nervous and could use their support. infact it felt good. but from the next day it was all me.
I had a lot goin on in my mind about this internship, and my life away from home and how id wanto njoy it. i had planned a lot too. things were goin pretty fine the first week, when i had enough work to do in the office and to work on my report. i was busy. that kept me goin. i was kind of liking what i was doin and how my life was goin on.
but let me tell you, what u always imagine or expect you would get out of your life, is only a rosey picture. nothing actually turns out as beautiful. things have to turn out the way they have to and you have to get used to these surprises that life brings forth. otherwise, trust m, life gets even harder.
what i was expecting out of life and what i planned for dint exactly turn out that way. And frnakly speaking, i freaked out. the people i was living and working with, all drove me crazy. i thought living away from home will give me everything i wanted.i thought living away from home will give me the freedom i always wanted.i wouldnt have to ask dad permission every time i wanted to go out with my friends. i wouldnt have to fight with mom over silly chores that i dint do.
well, its not how it turns out. its lot more complicated. freedom, u need, but with it comes a lot of responsibility, as well as a lonely life, where at times you may find the people you count upon, and at others u dont.
after everything i was goin through, i felt the kind of freedom i have living in my home, i can never get living out of it. and i couldnt wait to finish up with my two months of internship and get back home. i knw everything else would come back too. i know i would have to ask my dad for permission to go out with freinds, but i also know that i never did and never will get a no for an answer. he'll always let me do what i please.
and oh god did i miss doing all those chores. it is always so much fun working with mom. we have had some of the best times together. and i hav noi clue why i ever wanted to give that up.
After all life has to go on, and i will have to live away from my parents at some point of time, but the lesson that i learnt with this little outing is a big one. the reason why your mom or dad stop u from doin things you wanto do is not because they want to stop you from having fun, but its because they want the best for you. they have been through everything i am goin through now, and they r just trying to share their experience with you. and whether you take it or leave it is up to you.
i am glad that this little outing of mine was only for 2 months, because its not an easy world out there and your parents are always there for you to hold on to until your ready to let go. its been a week that im back home and now i dnt even wanna leave it to go to college...hahaha!!! but sure, life has to go on.